Back There Again

This old Buick's like the needle on a compass pointed due west
I remember her smile like June sunflowers
The look of her body as she slipped out that dress
God, I'm such a messNever a mornin' person but that girl's still in bed
Sheets are tanglin', little arm is janglin'
The last dream from her pretty head, I told her I was leavin'
She didn't believe the words I saidI ain't ever goin'
I ain't ever goin'
I ain't ever goin'
Back there againShe'll put on her makeup and drink from her tea cup
Glance at that silver frame
See, I took our picture and then it'll hit her
She'll cry out with pain, maybe whisper my nameI ain't ever goin'
I ain't ever goin'
I ain't ever goin'
Back there againNo one's gonna make me
Nothing's gonna take me
I ain't ever goin'
Back there againNow, don't blame her mama for makin' me promise
Don't come around here no more
She said, "Maybe your life's gone to hell
But that's a tour of duty she didn't sign up for"When you can't save yourself you save somebody else
Maybe that's how you survive
I'm runnin' away so she don't have to see
A life in slow motion suicideYou throw in the towel, they call you a coward
Tell you, Fight, don't cut and run
Well, I ain't no hero, but the truth is I know
It's the bravest thing I've ever done
The hardest part is knowing
What we could have and should have becomeI ain't ever goin'
I ain't ever goin'
I ain't ever goin'
Back thereNo one's gonna make me
Nothing's gonna take me
I ain't ever goin'
Goin' to break her heart again