That Don't Make It Junk

I fought against the bottle but I had to do it drunk
Took my diamond to the pawnshop but that don't make it junk
I know that I'm forgiven but I don't know how I know
I don't trust my inner feelings, inner feelings come and goHow come you called me here tonight?
And how come you bother with my heart at all?
You raise me up in grace
Then you put me in a place where I must fallToo late to fix another drink the lights are goin' out
I'll just listen to the darkness sing, I know what that's about
I tried to love you my way but I couldn't make it hold
So I closed the book of longing and I do what I am toldHow come you called me here tonight?
How come you bother with my heart at all?
You raise me up in grace
Then you put me in a place where I must fall