I'm Trying

She said, I'm not pointing fingers and he said, yes you are
'Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't
And if I told you I'd been walking out in the dark night thinking
Would you take his truth as alcoholic's word?Oh, I can't change what's done is done but I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins
And I need you to hold on to while this part of me is dying
Though I haven't kicked the demons that haunt meI'm trying, I'm tryingShe sat down on the floor and said, I wish I was stronger
Right now I feel as fragile as glass
And I want to believe you, believe what's held you, has freed you
And I hate these doubts that keep on coming backMy parents think I'm crazy for hanging on this long
But there's nothing I want more for us than to prove to them they're wrong
And I don't wanna be afraid, I don't wanna think you're lying
And though I haven't found the faith, that I needI'm trying, I'm tryingHe asked, do you want me to leave? 'Cause if you do, you know I will
But she said, much to his disbelief, no, I love you still, oh, I love you stillHe said, I don't know why I've been the fool but I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that I don't curse myself and all my sins
Then he dropped down to his knees, by now they both were crying
He said, I haven't been the man I wanna beBut, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying