Positive

Make me, make me sweat till I'm wet, till I'm dry
But then wipe this tear from my eye
Haven't felt this warm in a long time
Even out in the bright sunshine in a lifetime of springtimeI fall into your arms
With my heart pumpin' on
Like a bubblin' dub track
Like a garlicky hot tongue and lip smackI did some contemplation
Before we got down to this consecration
Maybe baby, somethin' in your kiss said
It was an impetuous for me to re-think thisIf I love you
Then I better get tested
Make sure we're protectedI walk through the park
Dressed like a question mark
Hark!
I hear my memory back
In the back of my brain
Makin' me insane like cocaineBut how am I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
How am I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive?It dawned on me, it seemed to me
This is unusual scenery
This red light greenery, make me feel kinda dreamery
Thinkin' how I used to beArrive at the clinic, walk through the front door
Take a nervous number
Then I think some more about all the time
That I neglected, makin' sure that I was protectedThey took my blood
With an anonymous number
Two weeks waitin', wonderin'I should-a done this a long time ago
A-lot of excuses why I couldn't go
I know, these things and these things, I must know
'Cause it's better to know than to not know!But how am I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
How am I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive?I go home to kick it in my apartment
I try to give myself a risk assessment
The wait is what can really annoy ya
Everyday's more paranoiaI'm readin' about how it's transmitted
Some behavior I must admit it
Who I slept with, who they slept with
Who they, who they, who they slept with?I think about life and immortality
What's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V.
Have a cry and tell my motherGet on the phone and call my past lovers
I never thought about infectin' another
All the times that I said, "Hmm, don't bother"Was it really all that magic?
The times, I didn't use a prophylacticWould my whole life have to change?
Or would my whole life remain the same?
Sometimes it makes me wanna shout!
All these things too hard to think aboutA day to laugh, a day to cry
A day to live and a day to die
Till I find out, I may wonder
But I'm not gonna live my life six feet underBut how am I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
How am I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
But how am I gonna live my life If I'm positive?